The last few days I have been continuously thinking about
how badly I wanted to blog, but I wasn't quite sure what I wanted to say. However, I was doing some thinking today
about something that has become sort of a pattern throughout my life and was thinking
about why I thought that was and I decided to write a little bit about it. Often my thoughts make more sense to me when
I write them out...
Throughout my life I have gone through times where I felt so
close with God and other times when I felt like God forgot about me and I
didn't feel close with Him at all. I was thinking today about what in those
situations made me feel like God wasn't there, or what made me feel so close
with Him. I began to realize that it had
a LOT to do with what I was going through at that specific time. I was beginning to get worried that I was one
of those people who felt close to God when everything was going good in their
life and felt far from Him if everything wasn't going their way. But, I realized that yes, I do feel close
with God when everything is going great in my life but it's because He has
given me peace. I also realized that even if I am going through a rough time I
can also feel very close with God, but only when I have peace over the
situation. So whether I am going through
a good situation or a bad situation I can feel great about my relationship with
God, but only if peace is involved. What
does peace really even mean? I looked it up and peace is the normal, non-warring
condition of a nation, group of nations, or the world. Peace is also referred to as a state of
mutual harmony. Colossians 3:15 says
"Let the peace of Christ rule in your heart since as members of one body
you were called to peace." I think a lesson that I need to learn is that
even if I don't understand what is going on in my life and I don't have peace
over it, God still is in control and He still knows what He is doing. I know
that the peace I am looking for will come with time, as God continues to teach
me new things each day. I just need to have more patience as I look for the
peace I am searching for...
